Rere - mm@maelstrom.stjohns.edu - 7/10, 7/25

Hi All!

Well day 2 of taking NAL. So far so good. The craving seems to be gone but the thoughts are still in my mind. I'm hoping once I am up to the full dosage this will change. One thing for sure it has seemed to take the edge off for me. Except I have had a couple of lite panic attacks, but that could be from PMS. Hate this part of being a women, is it the effect of this or that (like the NAL drug) or is it just because of regular ole PMS?

But as for the taking the edge off, I seemed to be less edgy with my kids (boys 4 & 6) both yesterday and today. This evening I even stopped reading in between working around the house and played with them. Got on the swing set and actually swung with them. Then the oldest and me did a craft project together. What a great night. Hope it keeps going like this. I did drink last night and am having some wine tonight but the hard core draw is not there. What I want this drug to do for me is after not drink for say 3 or 4 or 5 or more days of not drinking I think, "when was the last time I had a drink." And hopefully learn for all of this in the process.

Gotta run just had a craving for some hot peppers and pretzels.

7/25/01

Hi All!

I know the NAL is working for me.  I like Tracy have
not really drank any fewer days but the amount has
been pretty much "MY 3 Glass" goal.  Meaning my glass
is bigger than regulation but I am quite easily able
to keep it there.  And when I do drink more than the 3
glasses it is over a considerably longer period.  I no
longer have the urge to guzzle.  The craving is no
longer there at all, now it is just the habit of
drinking that takes over. 

But I must report that I had the BEST BREAK THRU
tonight.  I had decided I was going to add more ab
days to my week.  So today I decided was not going to
be a drinking day.  I too have been keeping track of
the number of drinks I have a day since mid-March.
Earlier today I put a big fat ZERO on my calendar.
Then tonight my friend showed up and wanted wine; we
make our own.  Gave her the wine and kept going back
and forth: 'do I want to cross that zero out or not.' I
hung tough and said it was going to stay a zero and it
did!  This is the first time in I could not tell you
how long that I did not cave.  I have been able to say
no and stick with it doing my 30, but not on the
single day during the week. I feel good and my hubby
better say "good job" too me also. 

One down many to go but they should get easier and
easier as time pass.

rere